Weight Loss Journey

This isn’t a typical post that I would go for, because it’s something very personal to me, and something that I’m quite sensitive about. However, I decided this might be one way for me to stay accountable on this journey. I figured, why not bring you guys along on it? This will not turn into a wellness blog, or anything like that, but I thought I would share things along the way!

My past with food

For as long as I could remember, I’ve always loved food. It was something that always brought me comfort, and whenever my family got together, we enjoy eating! After a while, food became an obsession, and it was something I used to make me feel better. It became an unhealthy habit. I went through a tough 3 years, beginning my senior year of high school. Food became something that I used to make me feel better, and to comfort me. I would end up replacing food with things that would be more beneficial to help me through my emotions. So my love for food was quite vast, and I always enjoyed trying new foods! But there would be a danger, along with this love for food. I would make myself eat so much until I hurt, because that pain was what I had control over. I couldn’t control anything else that I was going through, but I could control that. The amount of weight that I gained was outrageous. But I didn’t care.

I continued to not really care about my weight until I turned 30 and realized the effects of my weight were catching up to me. I struggled with my health, and getting certain numbers where they needed to be. I had tried Weight Watchers a few times, and other diets. But nothing seemed to work for me.

The Negative Effects of the Weight

Not only were issues with my health arising, but also emotionally. My weight caused some depression, because I wasn’t happy with the way I looked. Of course, I am the one in control of these feelings, and my weight. However, once I reached a certain pound, I felt like it was impossible to lose any. I essentially gave up hope and thought that I would be overweight for the rest of my life.

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 NIV

Whenever I read that verse, I instantly become ashamed of myself. Here I am, overweight, and my body is a temple of the Lord, and I am meant to take care of that body. To honor the Lord with my body. While I believe that the Lord does care about our health, I also do not think I was dishonoring Him. Remember, He knows everything before it happens. He knew the struggle I was going to go through with food. He knew the path this would lead me down. I believe it’s how I handle it now that matters the most.

The changes I will be making

So here I am, writing this blog that isn’t something that I normally write. Trying to take accountability for myself, and for my relationship with food. I’ve started a new health journey, friends, and it has been difficult. I’ve never struggled so much with a lifestyle change, as I am right now. However, since beginning this change I have lost 14lbs and 6oz in two weeks. I am currently in my 3rd week. Even though I know those big drops have a lot to do with my body adjusting to this new style, I am proud of myself for what I’ve accomplished. This hasn’t been a simple task and I’m tempted by the food that I can’t currently eat, every day. However, the knowledge that I have gained from this program far outweighs the temptations! I’m learning to grow not just physically but also mentally. I’m learning new ways to handle this relationship with food, and the things that are important to change when trying to lose weight. This is definitely not something that when I reach a goal weight, I’ll stop doing it all. This is a journey that I’ll never stop learning about!

I know this post is strange, something out of character for me to post about. But I’m excited to see where God leads! I want to honor Him with every part of my life, weight and all!

Until next time!